Angel

The most beautiful girl I ever saw

Standing between the aisle of Judases

Her face that drops a thousand jaws with aws

And now my stoned heart is tied with laces

The only angel in a room of snakes

Vivid aggression in the chestnut floor

The angel fell with venom of mistakes

And the stoned heart doesn't care anymore

As he was sitting there, lonely with mere

Another diamond fell out the sky

His heart was suppressed with love and fear

But the brain may, but the heart cannot lie

He's happy as he holds her like a lyre

For she was an angel blazed with fire.

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Dear Him

You know what i don't believe in the saying "Everyone deserves a second chance." because if you love someone you won't get tired of them. 

I always wanted to say that to him but I didn't get the chance to. Right now, I'm happy, I have moved on. Don't make them your world because once they leave you have nothing. You can move on. You just have to believe in yourself. You know you can, you just don't want to.

 I don't really like it when an adult says "You're too young for love." because no one is. Age doesn't define maturity. No one has the right to tell anyone they are too young for love. If you fall, you fall. You can't stop yourself.

I guess I can say that I'm only 14 and already, I have fallen in love. You guys might think that nah it's only puppy love. No, it's not. I want to know how I know? Because it's already been a year and a half and i still think of him. Even though he's a douche bag/asshole/lady killer. Yeah, yeah you might think I'm stupid but i can't help it. 

I  don't want to go by detail on our story because first of all there was no "Us". You can say our story was very tragic, for me, and complicated as complicated gets. He's not your usual guy. Trust me. Anyways. I fell for him and at that time i didn't know. He made me feel special and i loved it but one day he's gone. Just like that. I was so heartbroken that i just want to die. I have no appetite. I cry myself to sleep, Hear this, I can't even sleep! No one knew i was that depressed. Every night i wait for that single text or call but nothing came. Eventually i buried myself in books, That's my way to move on and i did and when i did he came running back. As a girl who just moved on of course i took him back. Oh come one, you would've done the same. Then it happened again and again and again. Like a cycle. I gave him three or four or even five chances because i have faith in him, that he'll change but I stand corrected. 

Dear Him,

Hi. I just want you to know that from to time still think of you, of how we could be a couple if you just change but I guess you're not ready to. At some point i thought that I could be the girl who would change you but I was wrong. I pray for that girl to come and steal your heart so you could stop stealing other's. You don't know how much I loved you.

 I have fallen in love with you really, really hard, and you were supposed to catch me but i guess you missed. Every day i wake up and you were the first thing that popped in my mind. I may be cold but you know why. I just want you to know that I still love you. Every part of me is denying it but there's a tiny part in me that's screaming "yes you still love him." I have a question to ask you though , What do you do if the one who broke your heart is the only one who can fix it? If you have the answer then maybe I'll forget about you but in the meantime, having you in my mind is a pleasure and a privilege. 

     Guest Writer #7: Tricia Yao

      Name:   Tricia Yao

      Age:14

"     Favorite Quote: "My thoughts are stars i can't fathom into constellations."

      About Me: I'm the typical Asian girl but i'm really a deep person. I grew up without a         mom and dad so i'm very independent. I have this other side that no one knows but me.

                                                                   

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Twisted Fate

No big word was ever easy. It's like the moon that seemed to be at the tip of your fingers yet million miles away from reality. But those are fantasy dreaming not unless you've gained the courage to stand, travel by space and finally have the sweetest taste of victory.
I can say,
I'm amazed.
I've dreamed.
I've traveled.
But I've never arrived.
My fate twisted raised to the bitterness of aftertaste. I'm broke, both by dreams and hope. But I'm never a loser. Though my dreams faded, my fate twisted, the fact that I'm still breathing was crystal clear.
Now, I can say,
I'm half drowned.
But I'll learn how to swam.
I will, I must, I should..
At first I see my fate coming in front of me. I was excited as hell, you can tell. COLLEGE. ENGINEERING. DREAM. FREEDOM. That's the words lingerin' in my head the moment I've seen the word ENROLLED printed on my first semester's college registration form. I murmured to myself, this is it! This is Paradise. My heart beats a million times each second when I first entered the gate with a post that says "No ID, No Entry". Now I can replaced that rule with a "No pain, No gain" policy. Expectations freshly rise by the people around me, the universities topnotch histories plus the challenge my mind urged me, brought me into real action. I know myself well that I can, though I'm not really good at logic and mathematics, I have tactics. I never believe in the power of cheating and deceiving, I lived by hard work and striving, hoping that someday, it will all payback on me. I make a lot of memories. Good memories, unforgettable memories, all kinds of memories. 

The first two years were rough yet fulfilling. The feeling you get knowing the fact that the quality of dream you're dreaming can be that on of the royalties? I can still remember that kind of heart imprinted to me. The boasting, discriminating and chin's upraising didn't miss the drama. My bad, I've realized after consecutive failing. I'm exhausted, I'm devastated. I know in myself I'm trying, But I guess trying isn't enough. When judgement time comes, I've risk to expect for signs and wonders in any way possible. If you're an engineering student, miracle chances are priceless, 3.0 is gold.

I failed to get the miracle I've expecting. That is the time I've decided. That is the time my faith and dreaming finally gave up, my heart scattered into million pieces. Feeling the feeling of being lost but never found. Aiming but never hitting the spot. Now I know how heartbreaking the feeling of wanting something big, working double hard, and yet in just a snap, letting it all flown and gone out of sight. As days passed by, I felt like I am the only one left over by the course side-effect. But as days passes by, so as my life. I know deep inside me that I need to keep up and left what's already left behind. I shifted. I can hear those mocking and judgmental teasing by people who once expected much from me. 

I wash crashed, I was underestimated, I was laughed by, but the hardest part, those people I've used to discriminate before, are the kind of people I'm now going to deal with. Yea, now I'm a total techie student which is the best option I thought would save my fall disgrace. Dealing with the side effect was hard, living to know that you're a quitter but having that heart of a winner. Enduring the pain and healing the wounds of losing the dreams you longed founded and lived. Hardest part of it was the unlimited asking, not to mention, excited asking of your old classmates what major are you taking for they don't know you already shifted boat and now sailing in a different water waves. Shame coated my whole personality. Disappointment branded me. Admitting my fall down kills me. seeing them everyday kills me more. I guess that's just how it meant to be. Moment I've decided, looking at the sign of giving up posted in a huge bulletin board, I realized some things aren't just meant to be. 

Though I know I can still breathe underwater, I don't wanna be taking risks anymore. I'm not in an Island of one to be selfish. I've had a chance, the opportunity, but I guess I'm off the hook. I'm closing that part of my story. I guess that paradise of me had withered in time.

Guest Writer #6: Nicca Remerata

Name : Nicca Remerata
Age : 21
About me : A bitch to those who exclusively deserve it. A simple woman who love the word variety.
Favorite Quote: Simplicity is beauty, still variety is a must see.

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If You Think You Are One Of Them Then I Want You To Read This

If you think you are a failure, I want you to try again. You see, failing is just a proof that we are not perfect human beings. The fact that computer systems commit errors is an evidence that they were made by programmers who are not perfect. You are not perfect. You may exert a lot of efforts to achieve something, you may give it your all, you may think that there is nothing that you didn't do, there will always be times that you will fail. But it doesn't mean that you are a failure. It does not mean that you are not good enough, it just means that this is not yet your time to succeed. So I want you to try again. If you think you have done your best then try to level it up. If you think you have done everything then think of another thing. If you think that you were born to fail then I want you to think otherwise. You just have to try again because the next time you do, it might be the time that you will finally succeed. I want you to try again because the true failure is not trying and you are not one, so please, try again.


If you think you are ugly, I want you to look within you and think otherwise. You may think that you are ugly when you have flat nose. You may think that you are ugly when you have a lot of freckles and acne on your face. You may think that you are ugly when you have dark complexion. You may think that you are ugly when you have frizzy hair. But then real ugliness is within you. You are ugly when you do nothing but hurt other people’s feelings. You are ugly when you always try to pull someone down even when that person is not doing anything to you. You are ugly when all that you ever wanna do is see other people suffer. If you are not one of those, if all that you could ever wish for other people is happiness just like what you wishes for yourself, then you are beautiful. The real beauty is within you. It is when you are genuinely helping others. It is when all you ever wanna do is to be the reason of somebody else’s happiness. It is when your conscience is clean from everything that may ruin it. It is when you are just being simply you. You are beautiful. Don’t you ever forget that.


If you think you are broken, I want you to pick yourself up. You see, loving is such a hard thing because it could make you or break you. In this case, it did the latter. There is nothing wrong with what you did. It is completely natural to love someone because the desire is so deep within your heart. It is completely okay to fall for the wrong one because people don’t wear signs that they are the right one. The thing that is not right is when you make yourself miserable because of it. It is okay to cry and feel the pain for a few days but being like the way you are for eternity is not just right. So I want you to pick yourself up. I want you to pick up every little piece of you and draw some strength to stand up again. I want you to see the world as something beautiful and I want you to live the way you should. I want you to go out and see the sun and I want you to run and move on from where you are right now. Do not drown yourself with so much misery. There is more to life than loving that someone. There is more to life than loving at all. You deserve something more than that. You deserve to live and to be loved. So I want you to live first and you will be loved by the right one later.


If you think you are alone, I want you to look around you. There may be times that your mindset is that there is no one else in this world but you. There may be times that all that you could ever think about is the fact that no one is there to listen to you. There may be times that you feel like you are just an island in a wide ocean and no one is there to swim to you. I want you to think again. There are 8 billion people in this world. Some of them are members of your family. Some of them are your friends or classmates. Some of them are those people you see on some other social-networking sites. Others are just around you, maybe feeling the same way you do. I want you to look around you and choose someone, just one person that you could trust all your issues to. It could be your mother or your best friend or just one of your followers. I want you to pour out all your emotions to that someone and I want you to listen to whatever that someone may say. I want you to know that you are never alone because somewhere, someone is feeling just exactly the way you do. And even when all the people around you failed to be with you, I just want to remind you that God is there whenever you need Him.

If you think you are afraid, I want you to pray. Some people say that fear is not real. It is just something that you program in your mind that cause paranoia and it could damage you completely. It is just a monster that eats up your mind alive. It is just your view of how things are gonna happen based on your past experiences. The future is inevitable but not moving because of fear is not just so right at all. So I want you to pray. I want you to ask guidance from God. I want you to tell Him all that you ever wanna say. I want you to ask for a peace of mind and clarity because I know for sure that He will grant them to you. Fear is something that could destroy you completely. Don’t let that happen. When fear knocks, I want you to let faith answer the door and everything will be alright. Everything will be so much better than you fear it would be.

If you think you are sad, I want you to be happy. Sadness could be so addicting. It is like a drug or coffee or chocolate cake. It may be bad for you but there will always be those times that you think you can’t just have enough. You could be sad about almost everything in your life. From all the things that you wish you didn’t do, the things that you will never have again, the things that you failed to do and just everything that didn’t turn your way. There will always be those times when you feel like giving up. There will always be those times that all you ever wanted to do is disappear. During those moments, I want you to look back to everything that made you happy. I want you to reminisce all those moments when you felt like you had all the blessings in this world. I want you to consider the fact that you are alive and that somehow, you are still making it through. I want you to be happy because you deserve to. I want you to be happy because even when there are a lot of reasons for you to be sad, there will always be more reasons for you to be genuinely happy. I want you to look at those reasons instead and I want you to remove all those sadness away.

If you think you are nothing, I want you to know that you are loved. Yes, you are. You may feel unappreciated at times. You may feel like everyone just hates you because of who you are and who you are not. You may feel like you are just a piece of mess and that no one is willing to deal with you. I want you to keep in your mind that you are loved. You are loved by God, by your parents, your family, your friends and even those you never thought would love you. You are loved by a lot of people and even when they don’t say those three little words all the time, I want you to believe that they love you. You are special and even when there are a lot of challenges that you might face in the future, I want you to believe in yourself and all the people around you. You are loved and that is more than enough to know just to keep on going.

Guest Writer #4: LM

Name: LM
Age: 16

About Myself: (mysterious guest writer)
Favorite Quote: It is not length of life, but depth of life.
- Ralph Waldo Emerson

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Florescence

flo·res·cence \flȯ-ˈre-sən(t)s, flə-\
n.
: a state or period of flourishing

Life never has it easy on anyone. It is not unfair, just normal.
When bad things come in like a roaring avalanche, ready to crush your bones and your weak heart, Just keep in mind that no one has a perfect life. A simple, honest fact.
Yes, some get to party incessantly like every night counts as the best night of their lives, and yes, some even get to buy almost half the things sold at the mall that some of us can only wish to get our hands on. But that doesn't mean home is just as pretty. Or that their inner self is just as exciting. No matter how much money someone else may have, and no matter how gorgeous someone can be, there are always cracks lying beneath the facade of the life they built for themselves. The one that covers all the trouble. All the pain.

So what do you do when you're stuck at a crumbling palisade and there aren't ropes, nor are there cushions to soften your landing? You could close your eyes and let your soul watch you shatter into a million, painful pieces.
Or you could keep your eyes wide open, and have faith.
Because life is never about having the best clothes or being famous, it's about surviving and living for the things that make your life worth it. Sure, you can choose the easy way and just work your way through suicide, but that is also guaranteed to be the easy way to hell. 
Young as I am, I'm telling you now that I've been there and I've done that; it didn't help, I didn't die. The ironic thing, is that I'm here, I'm fighting, and this is as good as it gets.

All of life's intricate knots are what makes us human. The capability we put into dealing with everything that life throws at us everyday is what pushes us to grow. It is what makes us florescent. It is who we are. Don't let your troubles break you; let them help you learn to stand up. Problems are your biggest paradox. But they are also your weakest enemy.
Don't fall.
Flourish.

Guest Writer #5: Alex Sapina

Name: Alex Sapina
Age: 17
About Me: A writer, photographer and an artist by heart; fueled by curiosity, good music and blessings. 
Blog: http://www.alexsapina.blogspot.com/
Favorite Quote: "Sometimes, I sit alone under the stars and think of the galaxies inside my heart, and truly wonder if anyone will ever want to make sense of all that I am." -Christopher Poindexter

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Life and Death

As I heard the news that one of my batch mate from school has died, I was in total shock. It was all sudden and it led me to think inquisitively about everything around me. Everything will either decay and decompose in the ground. Even if you're the president or just a regular janitor, you will bow down to the grounds of the world. As I saw all my batch mates weeping in sadness, I saw the love of each and everyone. They recall the memories and conversations they had with him and I realized one thing about life: It's too damn short.

Life is too damn short for us to not make memories with people and life is too damn short for us not to have meaningful conversations that will leave a mark to other people. One day we will die and our bodies will rot in the ground. But if you inspire and made adventurous memories with a lot people then your soul will never be forgotten and your memories will never perish.


Life is too damn short for us to regret. The world is mysterious and so are the infinite ways to live with it. So I realized that it's too damn short for us to contemplate with our what ifs. We should never delay moments that our family and friends offer us. We should always seize it. Because we never know the universe's mysterious ways.


Life is short but if we know how to live it then it will be a long journey. If we treat other people as if they were going to be dead by midnight; when we extend our kindness, encouragement and believe in them then we will live a short life full of journeys. If we know how to muster that kindness, encouragement and believe, people will remember who we are and they will do the same. Yes, you will die here on Earth. But your legacy will never perish.

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Your Future Lover

Your Future Lover

It's 2:37 AM and I was just thinking about the future. Isn't it funny that your future lover is alive breathing right now? They're maybe sleeping right now. In another country or maybe They're near where you're reading this.

Right now maybe you're just a stranger to your Future Lover. They don't have an idea that they will meet you one day in the right place at the right time. Right now maybe if they're awake they're thinking of the things that doesn't cross your mind and doing things that you don't know.

It's funny actually thinking that they're still out there. They're living and they're surviving another day here on Earth. They're dreaming and they're hoping to the billions of stars in the sky that they'll meet you as soon as possible.


It's kinda funny that one day your Future Lover will come and will love you with all they got. But today, you're just a perfect stranger to them. But I know the fact that when the right time comes, you will love them too. You just have to wait.

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Food and Love

What do you feel when you see a jar of Nutella in your kitchen? Seeing that jar of chocolate spread makes your whole body ecstatic with happiness. It leaves you smiling. What do you feel when you wake up in the morning seeing a plate of scrumptious bacon with a sunny side egg as a side dish? It makes you not hate mornings. Food brings happiness to everyone. From a kid with a candy bar to a senior citizen with a granola bar, food help us to feel life.

Our generation, the internet generation, loves food. We make accounts on Twitter, Facebook and Tumblr, we take pictures with it on Instagram like it would add flavor to our food, and we use it as an alternative to things. But why do we love food so much?

"Humans don't just survive; they discover; they create. ... I mean, just look at what they do with food!" – Remy, Ratatouille, 2007"

The so called food porn craze on social medias are really hitting it. Who wouldn't love to see food at their best? It's really funny  how it makes a lot of people hungry at late nights. It's like when you're in your laptop and you're looking at your favorite food and you're like 2 inches away from its angelic taste. It's like you're so close but you're so far. I got to admit it but the one good thing about this so called food porn craze or just looking at food that attracts your senses is that it inspires people to make their own version.  They buy ingredients from the groceries and they try to copy it. People try and try to copy it until they perfect it. Which is a big deal because they learn.

We love food so much because it's a bandage to a broken heart.

"He left you with another girl? Let's order pizza. At least the pizza's hotter than her."

"She dumped you? You want some ice cream? It's cold as your ex's heart."

"Love? I'd rather eat."

When you're feeling lonely, sad or depressed, you need family and friends. But more importantly, you need yourself. You are your own machine. If you cannot function well then everything around you will not function well either. That is why you need the little things to comfort you. That is why there's this thing called "comfort food". When you're heartbroken, you will eat a lot because it makes you less pessimistic. You will see the world as a dark and negative place. But food will help you see, one by one, that in darkness, it's always the luminous stars that shine the brightest . It will help you to fix yourself first while with good company like your friends and family.

                                                       


Food are  the little things in life that gives satisaction in our lives. Sweet, sour, bitter and saltiness that we feel when we eat can be compared to our lives. Life can be sometimes sweet, sour, bitter and salty. But if we know how to mix the flavors, just like Remy in Ratatouille when he mixed the piece cheese and strawberry, we will also experience the explosion of flavor. One last reminder, always remember that the happiness when you eat is only temporary. It makes you happy but it's not enough. The key to true happiness is sharing it with someone you love.

Bon Apetit!

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