Twisted Fate

No big word was ever easy. It's like the moon that seemed to be at the tip of your fingers yet million miles away from reality. But those are fantasy dreaming not unless you've gained the courage to stand, travel by space and finally have the sweetest taste of victory.
I can say,
I'm amazed.
I've dreamed.
I've traveled.
But I've never arrived.
My fate twisted raised to the bitterness of aftertaste. I'm broke, both by dreams and hope. But I'm never a loser. Though my dreams faded, my fate twisted, the fact that I'm still breathing was crystal clear.
Now, I can say,
I'm half drowned.
But I'll learn how to swam.
I will, I must, I should..
At first I see my fate coming in front of me. I was excited as hell, you can tell. COLLEGE. ENGINEERING. DREAM. FREEDOM. That's the words lingerin' in my head the moment I've seen the word ENROLLED printed on my first semester's college registration form. I murmured to myself, this is it! This is Paradise. My heart beats a million times each second when I first entered the gate with a post that says "No ID, No Entry". Now I can replaced that rule with a "No pain, No gain" policy. Expectations freshly rise by the people around me, the universities topnotch histories plus the challenge my mind urged me, brought me into real action. I know myself well that I can, though I'm not really good at logic and mathematics, I have tactics. I never believe in the power of cheating and deceiving, I lived by hard work and striving, hoping that someday, it will all payback on me. I make a lot of memories. Good memories, unforgettable memories, all kinds of memories. 

The first two years were rough yet fulfilling. The feeling you get knowing the fact that the quality of dream you're dreaming can be that on of the royalties? I can still remember that kind of heart imprinted to me. The boasting, discriminating and chin's upraising didn't miss the drama. My bad, I've realized after consecutive failing. I'm exhausted, I'm devastated. I know in myself I'm trying, But I guess trying isn't enough. When judgement time comes, I've risk to expect for signs and wonders in any way possible. If you're an engineering student, miracle chances are priceless, 3.0 is gold.

I failed to get the miracle I've expecting. That is the time I've decided. That is the time my faith and dreaming finally gave up, my heart scattered into million pieces. Feeling the feeling of being lost but never found. Aiming but never hitting the spot. Now I know how heartbreaking the feeling of wanting something big, working double hard, and yet in just a snap, letting it all flown and gone out of sight. As days passed by, I felt like I am the only one left over by the course side-effect. But as days passes by, so as my life. I know deep inside me that I need to keep up and left what's already left behind. I shifted. I can hear those mocking and judgmental teasing by people who once expected much from me. 

I wash crashed, I was underestimated, I was laughed by, but the hardest part, those people I've used to discriminate before, are the kind of people I'm now going to deal with. Yea, now I'm a total techie student which is the best option I thought would save my fall disgrace. Dealing with the side effect was hard, living to know that you're a quitter but having that heart of a winner. Enduring the pain and healing the wounds of losing the dreams you longed founded and lived. Hardest part of it was the unlimited asking, not to mention, excited asking of your old classmates what major are you taking for they don't know you already shifted boat and now sailing in a different water waves. Shame coated my whole personality. Disappointment branded me. Admitting my fall down kills me. seeing them everyday kills me more. I guess that's just how it meant to be. Moment I've decided, looking at the sign of giving up posted in a huge bulletin board, I realized some things aren't just meant to be. 

Though I know I can still breathe underwater, I don't wanna be taking risks anymore. I'm not in an Island of one to be selfish. I've had a chance, the opportunity, but I guess I'm off the hook. I'm closing that part of my story. I guess that paradise of me had withered in time.

Guest Writer #6: Nicca Remerata

Name : Nicca Remerata
Age : 21
About me : A bitch to those who exclusively deserve it. A simple woman who love the word variety.
Favorite Quote: Simplicity is beauty, still variety is a must see.

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If You Think You Are One Of Them Then I Want You To Read This

If you think you are a failure, I want you to try again. You see, failing is just a proof that we are not perfect human beings. The fact that computer systems commit errors is an evidence that they were made by programmers who are not perfect. You are not perfect. You may exert a lot of efforts to achieve something, you may give it your all, you may think that there is nothing that you didn't do, there will always be times that you will fail. But it doesn't mean that you are a failure. It does not mean that you are not good enough, it just means that this is not yet your time to succeed. So I want you to try again. If you think you have done your best then try to level it up. If you think you have done everything then think of another thing. If you think that you were born to fail then I want you to think otherwise. You just have to try again because the next time you do, it might be the time that you will finally succeed. I want you to try again because the true failure is not trying and you are not one, so please, try again.


If you think you are ugly, I want you to look within you and think otherwise. You may think that you are ugly when you have flat nose. You may think that you are ugly when you have a lot of freckles and acne on your face. You may think that you are ugly when you have dark complexion. You may think that you are ugly when you have frizzy hair. But then real ugliness is within you. You are ugly when you do nothing but hurt other people’s feelings. You are ugly when you always try to pull someone down even when that person is not doing anything to you. You are ugly when all that you ever wanna do is see other people suffer. If you are not one of those, if all that you could ever wish for other people is happiness just like what you wishes for yourself, then you are beautiful. The real beauty is within you. It is when you are genuinely helping others. It is when all you ever wanna do is to be the reason of somebody else’s happiness. It is when your conscience is clean from everything that may ruin it. It is when you are just being simply you. You are beautiful. Don’t you ever forget that.


If you think you are broken, I want you to pick yourself up. You see, loving is such a hard thing because it could make you or break you. In this case, it did the latter. There is nothing wrong with what you did. It is completely natural to love someone because the desire is so deep within your heart. It is completely okay to fall for the wrong one because people don’t wear signs that they are the right one. The thing that is not right is when you make yourself miserable because of it. It is okay to cry and feel the pain for a few days but being like the way you are for eternity is not just right. So I want you to pick yourself up. I want you to pick up every little piece of you and draw some strength to stand up again. I want you to see the world as something beautiful and I want you to live the way you should. I want you to go out and see the sun and I want you to run and move on from where you are right now. Do not drown yourself with so much misery. There is more to life than loving that someone. There is more to life than loving at all. You deserve something more than that. You deserve to live and to be loved. So I want you to live first and you will be loved by the right one later.


If you think you are alone, I want you to look around you. There may be times that your mindset is that there is no one else in this world but you. There may be times that all that you could ever think about is the fact that no one is there to listen to you. There may be times that you feel like you are just an island in a wide ocean and no one is there to swim to you. I want you to think again. There are 8 billion people in this world. Some of them are members of your family. Some of them are your friends or classmates. Some of them are those people you see on some other social-networking sites. Others are just around you, maybe feeling the same way you do. I want you to look around you and choose someone, just one person that you could trust all your issues to. It could be your mother or your best friend or just one of your followers. I want you to pour out all your emotions to that someone and I want you to listen to whatever that someone may say. I want you to know that you are never alone because somewhere, someone is feeling just exactly the way you do. And even when all the people around you failed to be with you, I just want to remind you that God is there whenever you need Him.

If you think you are afraid, I want you to pray. Some people say that fear is not real. It is just something that you program in your mind that cause paranoia and it could damage you completely. It is just a monster that eats up your mind alive. It is just your view of how things are gonna happen based on your past experiences. The future is inevitable but not moving because of fear is not just so right at all. So I want you to pray. I want you to ask guidance from God. I want you to tell Him all that you ever wanna say. I want you to ask for a peace of mind and clarity because I know for sure that He will grant them to you. Fear is something that could destroy you completely. Don’t let that happen. When fear knocks, I want you to let faith answer the door and everything will be alright. Everything will be so much better than you fear it would be.

If you think you are sad, I want you to be happy. Sadness could be so addicting. It is like a drug or coffee or chocolate cake. It may be bad for you but there will always be those times that you think you can’t just have enough. You could be sad about almost everything in your life. From all the things that you wish you didn’t do, the things that you will never have again, the things that you failed to do and just everything that didn’t turn your way. There will always be those times when you feel like giving up. There will always be those times that all you ever wanted to do is disappear. During those moments, I want you to look back to everything that made you happy. I want you to reminisce all those moments when you felt like you had all the blessings in this world. I want you to consider the fact that you are alive and that somehow, you are still making it through. I want you to be happy because you deserve to. I want you to be happy because even when there are a lot of reasons for you to be sad, there will always be more reasons for you to be genuinely happy. I want you to look at those reasons instead and I want you to remove all those sadness away.

If you think you are nothing, I want you to know that you are loved. Yes, you are. You may feel unappreciated at times. You may feel like everyone just hates you because of who you are and who you are not. You may feel like you are just a piece of mess and that no one is willing to deal with you. I want you to keep in your mind that you are loved. You are loved by God, by your parents, your family, your friends and even those you never thought would love you. You are loved by a lot of people and even when they don’t say those three little words all the time, I want you to believe that they love you. You are special and even when there are a lot of challenges that you might face in the future, I want you to believe in yourself and all the people around you. You are loved and that is more than enough to know just to keep on going.

Guest Writer #4: LM

Name: LM
Age: 16

About Myself: (mysterious guest writer)
Favorite Quote: It is not length of life, but depth of life.
- Ralph Waldo Emerson

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Love Knows No Boundaries

Love knows no boundaries for it can reach you anywhere at any time and whatever it is that you are doing. Love works as it does not move. Love works when you least expect it and love works when you have no idea of falling in its magic.

Love knows no boundaries. It can reach two people in different side of the world. Most commonly know as long distance relationship. It is not faith and trust that bind them together. It is love. Faith and trust is what’s keeping them in love. Sure it is hard for you are to say good morning when you are about to sleep. It is difficult for love is complicated. There’s a hint of jealousy and doubt which is natural specially in this kind of relationship but it is because of love that make you feel it. Because you love that person so much that you trust him and doubt him at the same time. It is love that keeps you waiting for the right where you can say “Good Morning” at the same time zone beside the arms of each other. You’ll know that love is all worth it and that your love succeed and agreed that love works and knows no boundaries.

Love knows no boundaries. It can be in its desperate state and may come when you least expect it. We sometimes call it forbidden. We say that it can never happen when really it does. We say they are never meant to be together when love permits them to be. Sure it has risks, a lot of it but love sure knows how to keep them. There are a lot of doubts. There are a lot of complication. There are a lot of confrontations. There a lot of people that will keep you from seeing each other. There a lot of sadness and sometimes, a prolong one. There are least of happiness and most of it are temporary and doesn’t last too long. They may stay as memory. It is as difficult as long distance relationship but this is where acceptance comes in the form of love. Accepting that forbidden is what’s keeping them together despite the odds in their way. To accept that they find happiness in their secret getaway is love. Forbidden as it may seems but love is present ever since, you will say that love succeeded in its work and knows no boundaries,

Love knows no boundaries. It doesn't just involve lovebirds. Love is where you have felt the heartbreak. It is where you have been depressed for a long period of time. It is where you find moving on a difficult stage. It is where you almost lost belief in the magic of love. It is where you cry all throughout. It is where you are bleeding in love and afraid to fall for it again. The truth is, you are not afraid to fall in love once again, you are afraid that you might found someone or someone might find you and do the same thing that hurt you. You are afraid of the feeling that hurt you the last time and not to fall in love again. Love does not lost, love just faded and love cures you. It doesn't just work for two hearts finding each other. It also works to heal it at the right time and you’ll know you’re cured when you are ready to love again.

Love knows no boundaries. It isn't just for couples, the brokenhearted and the hopeless romantic. It is also for families. The reason why family stands still despite life’s heavy load. Love is what keeps your heart close to each other and love is not lost nor faded when the heavy load gets you, it is because love is corrupted by the problem you have entertained. Love is where you succeed as family that stays close and spiritually healthy. Love is where you don’t keep secrets from each other and love is where you accept each other in the family because you are family and love binds you together.

Love knows no boundaries for love is eternal. Love is the gift of God that he himself made. It works because love is why the Earth stands still. Love is from God therefore man to man, woman to woman, and forbidden love are not so forbidden. Love between them are legit for God himself knows that his gift doesn't have any boundaries for anything is possible. Love knows no boundaries between two hearts that felt the same unique magic inside of them. Love knows no boundaries, just wait or better yet, move along with it.

Guest Writer #4: LM

Name: LM
Age: 16

About Myself: (mysterious guest writer)

Favorite Quote: "It is not length of life, but depth of life." - Ralph Waldo Emerson

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Life and Death

As I heard the news that one of my batch mate from school has died, I was in total shock. It was all sudden and it led me to think inquisitively about everything around me. Everything will either decay and decompose in the ground. Even if you're the president or just a regular janitor, you will bow down to the grounds of the world. As I saw all my batch mates weeping in sadness, I saw the love of each and everyone. They recall the memories and conversations they had with him and I realized one thing about life: It's too damn short.

Life is too damn short for us to not make memories with people and life is too damn short for us not to have meaningful conversations that will leave a mark to other people. One day we will die and our bodies will rot in the ground. But if you inspire and made adventurous memories with a lot people then your soul will never be forgotten and your memories will never perish.


Life is too damn short for us to regret. The world is mysterious and so are the infinite ways to live with it. So I realized that it's too damn short for us to contemplate with our what ifs. We should never delay moments that our family and friends offer us. We should always seize it. Because we never know the universe's mysterious ways.


Life is short but if we know how to live it then it will be a long journey. If we treat other people as if they were going to be dead by midnight; when we extend our kindness, encouragement and believe in them then we will live a short life full of journeys. If we know how to muster that kindness, encouragement and believe, people will remember who we are and they will do the same. Yes, you will die here on Earth. But your legacy will never perish.

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