Twisted Fate

No big word was ever easy. It's like the moon that seemed to be at the tip of your fingers yet million miles away from reality. But those are fantasy dreaming not unless you've gained the courage to stand, travel by space and finally have the sweetest taste of victory.
I can say,
I'm amazed.
I've dreamed.
I've traveled.
But I've never arrived.
My fate twisted raised to the bitterness of aftertaste. I'm broke, both by dreams and hope. But I'm never a loser. Though my dreams faded, my fate twisted, the fact that I'm still breathing was crystal clear.
Now, I can say,
I'm half drowned.
But I'll learn how to swam.
I will, I must, I should..
At first I see my fate coming in front of me. I was excited as hell, you can tell. COLLEGE. ENGINEERING. DREAM. FREEDOM. That's the words lingerin' in my head the moment I've seen the word ENROLLED printed on my first semester's college registration form. I murmured to myself, this is it! This is Paradise. My heart beats a million times each second when I first entered the gate with a post that says "No ID, No Entry". Now I can replaced that rule with a "No pain, No gain" policy. Expectations freshly rise by the people around me, the universities topnotch histories plus the challenge my mind urged me, brought me into real action. I know myself well that I can, though I'm not really good at logic and mathematics, I have tactics. I never believe in the power of cheating and deceiving, I lived by hard work and striving, hoping that someday, it will all payback on me. I make a lot of memories. Good memories, unforgettable memories, all kinds of memories. 

The first two years were rough yet fulfilling. The feeling you get knowing the fact that the quality of dream you're dreaming can be that on of the royalties? I can still remember that kind of heart imprinted to me. The boasting, discriminating and chin's upraising didn't miss the drama. My bad, I've realized after consecutive failing. I'm exhausted, I'm devastated. I know in myself I'm trying, But I guess trying isn't enough. When judgement time comes, I've risk to expect for signs and wonders in any way possible. If you're an engineering student, miracle chances are priceless, 3.0 is gold.

I failed to get the miracle I've expecting. That is the time I've decided. That is the time my faith and dreaming finally gave up, my heart scattered into million pieces. Feeling the feeling of being lost but never found. Aiming but never hitting the spot. Now I know how heartbreaking the feeling of wanting something big, working double hard, and yet in just a snap, letting it all flown and gone out of sight. As days passed by, I felt like I am the only one left over by the course side-effect. But as days passes by, so as my life. I know deep inside me that I need to keep up and left what's already left behind. I shifted. I can hear those mocking and judgmental teasing by people who once expected much from me. 

I wash crashed, I was underestimated, I was laughed by, but the hardest part, those people I've used to discriminate before, are the kind of people I'm now going to deal with. Yea, now I'm a total techie student which is the best option I thought would save my fall disgrace. Dealing with the side effect was hard, living to know that you're a quitter but having that heart of a winner. Enduring the pain and healing the wounds of losing the dreams you longed founded and lived. Hardest part of it was the unlimited asking, not to mention, excited asking of your old classmates what major are you taking for they don't know you already shifted boat and now sailing in a different water waves. Shame coated my whole personality. Disappointment branded me. Admitting my fall down kills me. seeing them everyday kills me more. I guess that's just how it meant to be. Moment I've decided, looking at the sign of giving up posted in a huge bulletin board, I realized some things aren't just meant to be. 

Though I know I can still breathe underwater, I don't wanna be taking risks anymore. I'm not in an Island of one to be selfish. I've had a chance, the opportunity, but I guess I'm off the hook. I'm closing that part of my story. I guess that paradise of me had withered in time.

Guest Writer #6: Nicca Remerata

Name : Nicca Remerata
Age : 21
About me : A bitch to those who exclusively deserve it. A simple woman who love the word variety.
Favorite Quote: Simplicity is beauty, still variety is a must see.

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Florescence

flo·res·cence \flȯ-ˈre-sən(t)s, flə-\
n.
: a state or period of flourishing

Life never has it easy on anyone. It is not unfair, just normal.
When bad things come in like a roaring avalanche, ready to crush your bones and your weak heart, Just keep in mind that no one has a perfect life. A simple, honest fact.
Yes, some get to party incessantly like every night counts as the best night of their lives, and yes, some even get to buy almost half the things sold at the mall that some of us can only wish to get our hands on. But that doesn't mean home is just as pretty. Or that their inner self is just as exciting. No matter how much money someone else may have, and no matter how gorgeous someone can be, there are always cracks lying beneath the facade of the life they built for themselves. The one that covers all the trouble. All the pain.

So what do you do when you're stuck at a crumbling palisade and there aren't ropes, nor are there cushions to soften your landing? You could close your eyes and let your soul watch you shatter into a million, painful pieces.
Or you could keep your eyes wide open, and have faith.
Because life is never about having the best clothes or being famous, it's about surviving and living for the things that make your life worth it. Sure, you can choose the easy way and just work your way through suicide, but that is also guaranteed to be the easy way to hell. 
Young as I am, I'm telling you now that I've been there and I've done that; it didn't help, I didn't die. The ironic thing, is that I'm here, I'm fighting, and this is as good as it gets.

All of life's intricate knots are what makes us human. The capability we put into dealing with everything that life throws at us everyday is what pushes us to grow. It is what makes us florescent. It is who we are. Don't let your troubles break you; let them help you learn to stand up. Problems are your biggest paradox. But they are also your weakest enemy.
Don't fall.
Flourish.

Guest Writer #5: Alex Sapina

Name: Alex Sapina
Age: 17
About Me: A writer, photographer and an artist by heart; fueled by curiosity, good music and blessings. 
Blog: http://www.alexsapina.blogspot.com/
Favorite Quote: "Sometimes, I sit alone under the stars and think of the galaxies inside my heart, and truly wonder if anyone will ever want to make sense of all that I am." -Christopher Poindexter

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Love Knows No Boundaries

Love knows no boundaries for it can reach you anywhere at any time and whatever it is that you are doing. Love works as it does not move. Love works when you least expect it and love works when you have no idea of falling in its magic.

Love knows no boundaries. It can reach two people in different side of the world. Most commonly know as long distance relationship. It is not faith and trust that bind them together. It is love. Faith and trust is what’s keeping them in love. Sure it is hard for you are to say good morning when you are about to sleep. It is difficult for love is complicated. There’s a hint of jealousy and doubt which is natural specially in this kind of relationship but it is because of love that make you feel it. Because you love that person so much that you trust him and doubt him at the same time. It is love that keeps you waiting for the right where you can say “Good Morning” at the same time zone beside the arms of each other. You’ll know that love is all worth it and that your love succeed and agreed that love works and knows no boundaries.

Love knows no boundaries. It can be in its desperate state and may come when you least expect it. We sometimes call it forbidden. We say that it can never happen when really it does. We say they are never meant to be together when love permits them to be. Sure it has risks, a lot of it but love sure knows how to keep them. There are a lot of doubts. There are a lot of complication. There are a lot of confrontations. There a lot of people that will keep you from seeing each other. There a lot of sadness and sometimes, a prolong one. There are least of happiness and most of it are temporary and doesn’t last too long. They may stay as memory. It is as difficult as long distance relationship but this is where acceptance comes in the form of love. Accepting that forbidden is what’s keeping them together despite the odds in their way. To accept that they find happiness in their secret getaway is love. Forbidden as it may seems but love is present ever since, you will say that love succeeded in its work and knows no boundaries,

Love knows no boundaries. It doesn't just involve lovebirds. Love is where you have felt the heartbreak. It is where you have been depressed for a long period of time. It is where you find moving on a difficult stage. It is where you almost lost belief in the magic of love. It is where you cry all throughout. It is where you are bleeding in love and afraid to fall for it again. The truth is, you are not afraid to fall in love once again, you are afraid that you might found someone or someone might find you and do the same thing that hurt you. You are afraid of the feeling that hurt you the last time and not to fall in love again. Love does not lost, love just faded and love cures you. It doesn't just work for two hearts finding each other. It also works to heal it at the right time and you’ll know you’re cured when you are ready to love again.

Love knows no boundaries. It isn't just for couples, the brokenhearted and the hopeless romantic. It is also for families. The reason why family stands still despite life’s heavy load. Love is what keeps your heart close to each other and love is not lost nor faded when the heavy load gets you, it is because love is corrupted by the problem you have entertained. Love is where you succeed as family that stays close and spiritually healthy. Love is where you don’t keep secrets from each other and love is where you accept each other in the family because you are family and love binds you together.

Love knows no boundaries for love is eternal. Love is the gift of God that he himself made. It works because love is why the Earth stands still. Love is from God therefore man to man, woman to woman, and forbidden love are not so forbidden. Love between them are legit for God himself knows that his gift doesn't have any boundaries for anything is possible. Love knows no boundaries between two hearts that felt the same unique magic inside of them. Love knows no boundaries, just wait or better yet, move along with it.

Guest Writer #4: LM

Name: LM
Age: 16

About Myself: (mysterious guest writer)

Favorite Quote: "It is not length of life, but depth of life." - Ralph Waldo Emerson

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